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If we are blessed enough to have a Bible, whether physically or online, we hold in our hands a love letter from God.
The Bible contains wisdom, guidance, correction, and the countless promises of a faithful Father to those who love Him. In its pages we discover who God is, who we are, and how we are meant to live.
Jesus made it beautifully simple:
Matthew 22:37-40 (NIV)
Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”
God loves us. He has spared nothing, not even His one and only son, who came in human form to bring us the good news, proclaimed good news, died on a cross, and rose again so that we might be saved.
Every moment of every day, God invites us to notice Him. To meet with Him. To know Him.
But He asks that we seek Him earnestly.
And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:13 (NKJV)
In the Western world, it is so easy to become distracted. We pour ourselves into careers, raising families, paying bills, planning holidays, or chasing our next purchase. Life feels busy. We tell ourselves we’ll focus on God later, when things slow down. We assume we have plenty of time.
Unfortunately, that was true of my own walk with God.
A Twelve-Year-Old Encounter
When I was twelve years old, I was given a small red Gideons New Testament at school. Every student in Year 8 received one. I had never read the Bible for myself before. I don’t think we even owned one in our Catholic household.
As I began reading about the ministry of Jesus — His miracles, His authority, His compassion — I was captivated. But when I reached Matthew’s account of His betrayal, crucifixion, and resurrection, something shifted inside me. I had heard the story many times in church.
But this time was different.
Tears flowed uncontrollably. The words felt alive. Personal. Real.
The Holy Spirit was drawing me.
Wandering and Returning
When I was first touched by God, I was 12 years old. I had been given a small red Gideons New Testament at school. Everyone in Year 8 received one. I had never read the bible before. I don’t think we had one in our Catholic household. I can remember being entranced while reading the miraculous and powerful ministry of Jesus. When I read Matthew’s description of his later betrayal, death and resurrection I was overcome. Tears flowed uncontrollably. I had heard these things many times before, when I was in church. But, this time was different.
Wandering and Returning
As a teenager, I drifted away. I briefly returned at seventeen, only to slip back into a partying lifestyle.
Then at twenty-three, I found myself single and pregnant to a married man. I was faced with difficult choices:
Keep the baby and face shame?
Place the baby for adoption?
Or terminate the pregnancy?
Even though I wasn’t walking closely with God at that time, He placed a clear word in my heart:
“This baby is a gift from God.”
I chose to keep my precious baby boy. That decision changed the direction of my life. My son has grown into a strong and good man with a beautiful family of his own.
When he was six months old, God brought a wonderful man into my life, the man who became my husband. He loves and cherishes me, my son, his sisters, and our entire family.
Yet more than ten years later, after being deeply offended by people in our church, we walked away. I never imagined I would fall so far from the Lord.
Seventeen years passed.
It wasn’t until my one-year-old grandson lay in ICU in a coma, on the brink of death, that I returned fully to Him.
Altogether, I had spent twenty-four years distracted — believing I had forever.
But in that crisis, I sought Him with all my heart. I seized every opportunity to draw near again.
And He met me.
But if from there you seek the Lord your God, you will find him if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul. When you are in distress and all these things have happened to you, then in later days you will return to the Lord your God and obey him. For the Lord your God is a merciful God; he will not abandon or destroy you or forget the covenant with your ancestors, which he confirmed to them by oath.
Deuteronomy 4:29-31 (NIV)
Why Did I Weep at Twelve?
Looking back, I’ve often wondered why I wept as a twelve-year-old reading something I had heard many times before.
It’s simple.
God’s Word comes alive when we read it for ourselves.
The Holy Spirit breathes on Scripture when we pursue Him personally. A rhema word, a living word, ignites something deep within us. Even familiar passages become fresh revelation when we seek Him wholeheartedly.
God reveals His heart to those who lean toward Him.
He speaks through Scripture, through prayer, through worship, through nature, through other people, through dreams, impressions, or a quiet knowing in our spirit.
He is always speaking.
The question is — are we seeking?
Don’t Wait
So I urge you, don’t wait.
Seek God now. Pursue Him today. The years pass more quickly than we realise. The pleasures of this world are temporary, but the rewards of walking with Jesus are eternal.
Prayer
Father God,
Thank You that You never give up on us. Even when we wander, even when we delay, You remain faithful.
Forgive us for the times we have assumed we had more time. For choosing distractions over Your presence. Awaken our hearts again. Stir a holy hunger within us. Help us not to postpone what matters most.
Teach us to seek You now. Not out of fear, but out of love.
Draw us close, Lord. We don’t want to waste another day.
In Jesus’ name,
Amen.
Activation
If God has been nudging your heart, take one step today, not tomorrow.
• Open your Bible and read one passage slowly and intentionally.
• Set aside ten quiet minutes to sit with God.
• Whisper a simple prayer: “Lord, I want to know You more.”
• Remove one small distraction that has been stealing your focus.
Don’t wait for the perfect season. Don’t wait for a crisis. Don’t wait until life slows down.
Seek Him now.
It’s never too late to return.
Right now is always the best time to begin. 💛
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I would love to hear about your journey with God. Feel free to comment or subscribe below. May you experience the mercy, love, and nearness of our faithful Father.
God bless you 💛
Sources:
Jesus 4 Generations 
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